- Lock my life with you ;

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I sit here wondering how it came to be,
My life without you no one but me.

I always thought you'd be by my side,
With you in my life I didn't have to hide.

Somewhere along our journey I lost my way,
And now I understand why you chose not to stay.

Now I wonder what tomorrow holds,
Looking to the journey and how it unfolds.

From this point forward I live only for me,
Never forgetting how it came to be...

You broke up with me yesterday
and ripped my heart in two.

I never thought I'd hurt this much,
I couldn't stop crying over you.

I do not feel complete anymore,
A part of me is missing.

I missed the way we used to hug each other
When we were on your/my bed.

I missed the days we held each other's hand
When we were walking down streets.

I missed the days we watched a movie together
eating all the chips and cheese.

Playing beatmania together
is just fun with you.

You are the girl of my dreams.
I wish we could be together again.

Now I know that it's just not possible
But I want you to know that I'll love you Forever.

When love has come
But soon is gone.

It begs the question,
Was it there?

The love was lost
And never found
Lost without you,
Lost without me,
Lost into eternity.

The love was just a figment
A figment of our minds

Something we could ponder,
But never express.
Was it love or just a feeling,
Was it love or just healing,
Healing from the hatred,
The hatred of our hearts.

Our past was deep and full of pain,
We needed this to release the stain.

For this I do not regret,
The time with you that I had spent.

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Sunday, October 25, 2009

This post is written by : Stanley

My Court, 22.10.09

What I know is, my Samantha baobei & all my friends helped me alot.
I felt the strong feeling and urge to hug my baobei tightly when im in the waiting room.
I wanna thank her and thank all my friends for supporting and helping me through my difficult times. Giving me strength and lifting me up when im gonna fall. This is what i will never forget in my life. When i see the sweat on you, the tiredness on you, i just felt like crying. Nothing in the past will be more important then being with you now. Wanting to hold you but the feeling i felt, you're leaving. I assumed you're tired after a critical day. I let go of you but never thought it would be the last time i see you. *sigh*

Today, 25.10.09

I woke up with a heart all missing you. Miss your voice, miss your hugs and kisses. Im a useless person now, i understand i now don't suit u at all. Leading you to say all those to me. When did i really took revenge on you for the things you did in the past? I'm now kinda speechless and really don't know what else to say. I wanna let you know your importance in me, but i cant even see your shadow now. The only way is to hear your voice over the phone and shut my eyes, feeling your existence around me. Looking back in the past, trying to find back our memories. Looking at my hands, asking myself, am i the one to hold you for all your life? Looking at my legs, asking myself, am i the one to walk down future with you for all your life? Closing my eyes and now i see blanks and silence. Why did you changed into a different person after our 1years 5months? You said you love me, you said you'll never leave me, you said you will love me and prove that we'll be together forever, you cried to me and plead me not to leave, had you forgotten all this? Why so sudden, out of nowhere, you are walking away from me? Why did you not let me go months ago? Why now that i'm trying to give you all i have then you choose to hurt me. *sigh* -Will you be happier if I leave now? I'll give you the space you need. Take Care baby-

My Tears, 17.34 hours

I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand. So now I leave you without a sound except my heart shattering as it hits the ground.

If a tear fell from my eyes, everytime i wished you were with me. I would have a puddle of fallen wishes at my feet.

Through the wind I hear your voice, in the clouds I see your name. Living life without you just wouldn't be the same.

If i had a single flower for everytime i thought of you. I would have a garden filled of misses. And tears to keep those flowers blooming for you.

Telling you, i love you comes from the heart. The place that made me love you from the start.

The hardest thing in life isn't finding the one you love, it's making the one you love...Love you back. I love you!

I cried happily for the times that you were mine, I cried for the memories we've left behind, I cried for the pain, the lost, the old, the new... I now cry for the thought that I had you forever. Are we meant to be?

Thinking back on the days we talked on the phone together. Thinking back on those laughters and tears we shared with one another. Thinking back on those efforts we put in together to be with one another. Thinking back on the memories we had just felt like a miracle. Thinking back on the times you complete my life, is now shattered into pieces.

A part of you has grown in me. And so you see, it's you and me together forever and never be apart, maybe in distance, but never in my heart. I love you Samantha.

My last bit of breathe

P.S : Do you know, i ordered a photoframe just before my court date, wanting to put our photo in it, incase I really did not make it out. I want to leave a memory for that few days that im always with you. & I Love You. I don't know what will you do, what will you think. BUT!!!! Please *sigh* Please take care of yourself.
Stanley Tan ("v ')Loves(' v") Samantha Lim For Eternity!

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Sunday, October 18, 2009

the pictures that were taken when dear n derrick played beatmania at Iluma(:

* what a challenge *

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shag today, was cleaning the entire kitchen at work as the ppl are coming to check whether our resturant is graded A,B,C or D. lols.! hardwork. anyways, dear went out with fa to see horse racing again. not so good thou. sayang dear dear. after work around 6.30pm i took cabby home as my uncle's and aunties came over. they brought two philipino guys who are singers and plays the guitar. sang along with them , everyone had fun. lots of good food to eat. haha, my mum cooked my favourites. so touched. love her. going to dota soon. missing my baby boy lots now. hope to see him soon again . love you and only you! (:

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Saturday, October 17, 2009

hohos! ~ worked today, dear came to accompany me for my break time(: and waited for me to end work toos. not sure where to go thou after work, so as we walked towards mrt, we pass by this bungee thingy which was intresting, will upload the photos i took (: told dear that one day we will try it out! =x going to scream like hell sia. hahas. anws, headed to amk to meet desmond, fa , weng and a few more frens. just slacking at radiers coffeeshop. went to play pool after that(: super long never play le, lost the touch . hahas. nothing much le so headed back home, as we are all going to play dota together. kana addicted to it. omg! ~

i simply love my baby boy! im glad that when i open my eyes all i see is you beside me! i love you dear! muacks*

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Thursday, October 15, 2009

this past few days have been busy with work. tiring everyday. ytd was sick, had a slight fever so took mc and rested at dear's place. Today, dear came down for my break time to accompany me. bought scatchiee, which did not have much luck, hope we'll have more luck tml. (: dear , waited for me to end work, but today i had to attend my cousin's wedding dinner. in the end my mum picked me up from my workplace . the wedding was nice, food was not too bad, took many pictures with my cousins and family(: . missed them tons. nothing much , today off day le. going meet my baby. woots.! ~

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Friday, October 9, 2009

too tired to blog for the past 2 days , work was very busy, had 4 minor cuts already xD. so careless. anyways, at last today met dear after his work! woots* super happy. make my day(: went over to his house and had dinner together. had to rush back home as my mum wanted the desserts for her bible study which is at my auntie's house near by mine. went to decorate the mini mango mousse cake. will upload the pics soon. tml working again and its going to be crazy. sat n sun busy days. Today was my off day. glad that i could see my dear. missed him hell lots during my working days. we're so busy now as our work place are dam busy. super tiring, saw baby today super shag. sayangs, helped him massage awhile while resting(: hope it help you with your aches ^^ muacks. cant wait to see you again baby boy!

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Tuesday, October 6, 2009

2nd day of work! super tiring, peeled so many oranges and much more. bought the 'cream puffs' from the shop in working at. which is super dam nice luhs! ~ hahas. ended work around 530 , my dad fetched me home , and met dear for dinner . took train down to orchard to fetch him and went back to his place. tabao noodles. boiled sausages for us too(: spend time with dear awhile and met weng and fa at his house downstairs. its gonna be long till i see my dear again wors! sadds. going to miss him super much. ): hope to meet him soon! love him! DOTA now(:

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Monday, October 5, 2009

Just got back from work(: first day. ppl over there were nice. enjoyed today. anyways, ytd ann , tat n baby came over my hse to fetch me as it was tat's mum birthday(: Bake a cake which ann ordered from me. played mahjong while waiting for the party to start. haha i won $ 40+ as dear said. x.x really luckily ytd.ate alot of food there. really loves the chicken curry tat's mum cooked, dam nice luhs! ~ and much more. around 9 took cabby back to baby's hse and accompanyed each other before i start working. loves my baby lots. no one can ever replace him in my heart(: , muackies.
MY ONE TRUE LOVE IS YOU BOY

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Saturday, October 3, 2009

saturday ler!! woots. woke up early to decorate Ann's cake(: and headed to dear's place , at night had to celebrate my cousin's birthday with family. so spend only the afternoon with dear. was super hungry on the way to his place. woke him up from his sleep cos i was super hungry. haha , OPS xD well, it was 3pm so i think he had enough sleep =x haha. anyways went downstairs to eat n bought 4D. (: took cabby back home n quickly went off with dad to 'Raffles Town Club' . We had jap there. the food was not bad. ate alot the bill was like close to $400 . omg so expensive. i bake a cake for her so after dinner all of them came over and had cake n played 'Wii' . super funny as this is their first time playing this game. had fun with them.
missed dear too. he went to play mahjong when i went home, fetched him to ann's place when i took cabby home. did not have luck as he lost. x.x we will have better luck next time ya dear(: they went to eat, dear n ice went to play the brick game.baby, called me and said he won a camera for me. thanks dear thats so sweet of you . muacks x33
currently they are at Kranji prawning. Ann, ice, tat n baby! xD
will be waiting for dear's call . tml ann , tat n baby will be fetching me at my place n head over to tat's place. as his mum bdae is tml(: together with the cake they ordered from me. Can't wait to see Baby again ! hugs!

*pictures taken today(:*

happy birthday valerie!

* what i ordered xD *

* this was super nice, the soup *

* a snap shot of my mum eating. xD *
if she knew i post this she will kill me

* My DADDY! SMILE x.x *

* danniel, me n valerie *

* my auntie's and my mummy *

* nice picture of my parents together(: *

* family photo *

* all of us! :D *

* the cake i made for her *

* singing song time *

* (: birthday girl, she turned sweet *18 *

* random pictures taken while playing 'Wii*

* lastly my maid n me *

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Friday, October 2, 2009

today woke up and bake a cake ordered by Ann (: and apple pie for my uncle who helped me find a full time job! went to meet dear n derrick at bugis . as usuall played beatmania for a few rounds. and ate at 'MOF' jap food. super nice. hahas. and super full. had Bento set meal. and derrick just had dear's dessert. Lol. went to shop for my safety boots for work . bought a shirt, jeans, short shorts & hair tie (: all set for monday first day at work. going be very busy. hope to be able to spend time with dear when we have our off days. hope to spend it fully tml and sunday before both of us will be so busy with work. loves dear dear. the night was dark so headed back to dear's place awhile . took cabby home now eating maggie for supper waiting for dear's call then DOTA . haha . MUACKS! see you tml deariee. huggs! ~ spend more time with me okay(: x33

* pictures taken at 'MOF' *

* snap shot of dear xD *

* my BENTO set *

* dear ordered this set was super nice *

~ going miss you like hell baby ~

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Thursday, October 1, 2009

Just got back home (: went to my auntie's house near by for a gathering as my cousin is going overseas for his studies. hope he has a save flight there. anyways, his going to London. nice place (: had popiah.

* this is baby essa ( my auntie adopted her)*

* russell, samuel(the one is white strips) whose going overseas, my brother & me *

was at dear's place for 8 nights (: and today's our 1 year 5th month Anniversarry! many more to come! Muacks beloved! ~
well, for the past few days with dear, we went out some days, on tuesday we met derrick at bugis after dear's work and played beatmania at ILUMA! the place was very cold. and other days were spend at dear's place. just the two of us(: we played bingo when we were bored. lols. and draw random stuffs.

* random drawing at dear's place xD *

* who won for Bingo? *

dear got sick 2 days ago, his body was super hot and he had no appetite. bought for him porridge and bahkuteh but he did not eat much. seeing him so sick made me so xin tong. stayed by his side the whole night, making sure he was okay , all covered up . This morning he felt better.(: cooked pancake for his early lunch. he played dota awhile, for lunch i went to tabao 'barchoumee'. yumms! ~ around 6 we went to amk st 42 to 'poon huat' to bake my cakes stuff as ann has ordered a cake for sunday(: dear will be off for 4 days le. hope to be able to meet him as i have found a Full time job at liang court , Tampopo Deli. starting on Monday. need to get all my stuff very soon.
gonna miss my dear although i just toned over for 8 days, but still im going to miss him much!

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