This post is written by : Stanley
My Court, 22.10.09
What I know is, my Samantha baobei & all my friends helped me alot.
I felt the strong feeling and urge to hug my baobei tightly when im in the waiting room.
I wanna thank her and thank all my friends for supporting and helping me through my difficult times. Giving me strength and lifting me up when im gonna fall. This is what i will never forget in my life. When i see the sweat on you, the tiredness on you, i just felt like crying. Nothing in the past will be more important then being with you now. Wanting to hold you but the feeling i felt, you're leaving. I assumed you're tired after a critical day. I let go of you but never thought it would be the last time i see you. *sigh*
Today, 25.10.09
I woke up with a heart all missing you. Miss your voice, miss your hugs and kisses. Im a useless person now, i understand i now don't suit u at all. Leading you to say all those to me. When did i really took revenge on you for the things you did in the past? I'm now kinda speechless and really don't know what else to say. I wanna let you know your importance in me, but i cant even see your shadow now. The only way is to hear your voice over the phone and shut my eyes, feeling your existence around me. Looking back in the past, trying to find back our memories. Looking at my hands, asking myself, am i the one to hold you for all your life? Looking at my legs, asking myself, am i the one to walk down future with you for all your life? Closing my eyes and now i see blanks and silence. Why did you changed into a different person after our 1years 5months? You said you love me, you said you'll never leave me, you said you will love me and prove that we'll be together forever, you cried to me and plead me not to leave, had you forgotten all this? Why so sudden, out of nowhere, you are walking away from me? Why did you not let me go months ago? Why now that i'm trying to give you all i have then you choose to hurt me. *sigh* -Will you be happier if I leave now? I'll give you the space you need. Take Care baby-
My Tears, 17.34 hours
I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand. So now I leave you without a sound except my heart shattering as it hits the ground.
If a tear fell from my eyes, everytime i wished you were with me. I would have a puddle of fallen wishes at my feet.
Through the wind I hear your voice, in the clouds I see your name. Living life without you just wouldn't be the same.
If i had a single flower for everytime i thought of you. I would have a garden filled of misses. And tears to keep those flowers blooming for you.
Telling you, i love you comes from the heart. The place that made me love you from the start.
The hardest thing in life isn't finding the one you love, it's making the one you love...Love you back. I love you!
I cried happily for the times that you were mine, I cried for the memories we've left behind, I cried for the pain, the lost, the old, the new... I now cry for the thought that I had you forever. Are we meant to be?
Thinking back on the days we talked on the phone together. Thinking back on those laughters and tears we shared with one another. Thinking back on those efforts we put in together to be with one another. Thinking back on the memories we had just felt like a miracle. Thinking back on the times you complete my life, is now shattered into pieces.
A part of you has grown in me. And so you see, it's you and me together forever and never be apart, maybe in distance, but never in my heart. I love you Samantha.
